Thursday 31 July 2008
DORMANT DESIRES
Some desires have been lost down the lane of life
some desires shall remain stifled in this heart forever
some desires have been burnt in this heart
some desires have burnt this heart.
Some expressions have gone uncared for
some tears have been concealed forever
something has changed this heart forever
someone shall own this heart forever.
I don't desire to love you I just do it
I don't desire to hate you I just cant
I don't desire to ask you anything
I just desire to share my silence with you.
I just desire to talk to you once
to cry on your shoulder
to feel what your hands feel like
to just kiss you good-bye
a hearing of yours of my wailing
a wetting of your heart by my tears
a moment to help me evade my lament
a moment that shall last with me unlike you
a moment that shall intoxicate my silence
with the fragrance of your presence.
I just desire to be with you
one last time; one true time
I just desire an expression; inexplicable it may be
I desire a sweet poison; not a slow death...
Friday 18 July 2008
FRIENDSHIP IS INEQUALITY
How do you befriend anyone? Probably doing anything in favor of him or her in any form; be it help of any sort or a communication making other person feel better. You actually don’t expect anything in return i.e. there is a void on the so-called R.H.S. Not just this, how comfortable the person receiving this favor is; probably defines the extent of friendship. The lesser the acknowledgement of this favor the better is the friendship.
Thursday 17 July 2008
A beautiful mind
I believe that the demarcation between the conscious and the sub-conscious is amorphous and often dissolves as ignorance attempts to shield the conscious mind or rather the mind that we are conscious about. The more we know the more we realise our ignorance; our inability to perceive and experience the concealed. This ability is often experienced within the realms of mysticism. Physically,the very same action can be performed by voluntary and involuntary parts of your brain; you breathe but sometimes you can actually feel directing your mind to inhale and exhale. The natural evolution process has led us to perform some really complex activities with ease. But this has cost us the ability to appreciate the beauty of simple events. Beware, am not going off line the the scientific track; what I am trying to emphasise is that we duplicate so much that it forces our mutating instincts to wither. The mutation is happening on its own consistently but on its own transforming our very basic nature. So, do we control our life or is life controlling us?
Nopes, am not trying to create a paradox but there lies a fallacy here. Can you point it out or is it inherent in nature as humans have a basic tendency to err. May be I have not managed to write what I actually meant or what is written has not been interpreted exactly the same or your thinking & reasoning is not precisely addressing that interpretation. It seems that the fallacy is inherent.
Another thing, does our thinking & reasoning actually need to address the issue? I mean do you think about something or you think around something or you think (ponder) over something or do you await a spontaneous anarchic instinct to come up with a solution. But even this wait is a schedule, an ordeal as are other so-called 'thinking' processes.
Beauty is a mood of your mind that is experienced if you care to notice. Appreciate the difference because beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.
Are you a beautiful mind? Do you seek beauty?
Monday 5 May 2008
SOMETIMES
Sometimes I beg the silence to rip apart itself
to let me speak to you,shout on you,scream
it could have made me feel better...
I loved you, damn hell, I loved you;but its not that
Its ofcourse not an obligation for you to love me
but you knew me, you knew me well
We had spent quite some time together
shared some moments intimate to me
which now you dont just remember
Once I saw that expression in your eyes
which for me is beyond any verdict
as undifferentiable as life and and an endless dream
A desire it was in your unforgettable eyes
wanting me to hold you, hug you, possess you
You felt unafraid of anything and everything.
I didn't speak my emotions
but they didn't go unexpressed
for you acknowledged my acceptance of your admittance
with your cursory look down my soul.
Now that you have falllen in love with someone
I dont say its right or wrong
for who am I to say that
if I was never the one you loved.
Its just that you neither had time enough
nor any emotions for my share
5 min, 5 min and it was all over
for those 5 min I was completely soaked in your voice
Yes, the voice was familiar but words unfamiliar
5 min and my dreams, fantasies
all came rolling down the ground
but its not just the dreams that go futile
its my existence, my thoughts; a part of my soul.
Sometimes, I see you in silence and darkness
sitting beside me helping me figure out my existence
But its just that I forgot that you forgot me
Sometimes, I just want that silence to pervade
I want to lose myself, dissolve into its darkness
it brings me a feeling very familiar
and helps me avoid a feeling very familiar.
Sometimes, I sketch my heart on paper
Sometimes, I write what I read not
Sometimes, I express what I speak not
Sometimes, I pray that you will be back
Sometimes, I pray that I will give up this prayer...
Sometimes, my heart begs to cry out
that if it were to happen the way it did
you could have made it easier for me.